Decisions

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I buy things I don’t need

Stuff it in closets I don’t use

Because when distressing thoughts invade

And I can’t breathe

I feel like I have nothing to lose

And I make decisions that I often regret

Seeking a distracting endorphin high

And I hide the results of the decisions I make

Allowing me to always get by

In a world where I wonder if something’s off

And I can’t seem to put my finger on it

So I swallow my unease

And I push through

And live by doing things I shouldn’t do

And I’m always looking ceaselessly to find

Things to quiet my uneasy mind

As I tunnel out trying to understand me

Questioning the nature of reality

Trapped in this simulation trying to break free